I have decided that figuring out what you want to do "when you grow up" is not easy. In fact, it's proving to be extremely difficult right now. And the most frustrating part... where to begin? I only wish that I knew what making a start looked like... one day I want to look back on this season of life and laugh... one day. Cheers to dreaming.


image via here*
*my newest inspiration and blog addiction 

happiness

i love love love these bears!...

just look at how happy they are-

not. a. care. in. the. world.

i know this seems crazy but when i am
having a bad/crazy day my very good
friend emails me their picture :)

via my foster mom/keeper/life coach...

Texas, I will see you in two days!

I will be enjoying mexican food, my friends and my family in TWO DAYS!

Oh Texas... it is really the little things that I am missing

like driving my car and NOT wearing a massive coat, 

gloves, scarf and a million layers everytime I walk outside. 

*and despite the huge crime of fashion that UGG boots have become- 

they will be making a trip to NY on Sunday... I need them in my life.

 I tried to not need them but I do. I am also looking to bring a 

roommate back with me this weekend... any takers? 

i love patty g

its been one of those weeks...

i think i became a grown up this week.

i am not kidding. i am pretty sure that somehow 

between last friday and today... i became a grown up.

it probably has something to do with working a 10 -7

 job in new york city at a massive ad agency...

 and seeing a friend go through an extremely 

  scary time with her dad.  i love you kb.

so... this cd has been a bit of a saving grace.

(recommended by my favorite music lover, kb) 

i do not like to feel helpless and yesterday when 

i received a phone call about one of my best friend's

dad having a heart attack- i felt helpless. 

nyc couldnt have felt farther away...

snail mail

"life is either a great adventure or nothing."  

Yesterday I realized that I am not leaving New York. This is my new home... I have been told that I will feel like I am on vacation for a year- I believe it.  So as I was roaming the city feeling like I would never find a job, apt or have a life here... I checked the mail.  I had letters... lots of letters from best friends.  They were each filled with pieces of my friends and home and prayers and wishes.  Thank you friends. YOU GUYS ARE THE BEST. The above quote was the cover of one of my little letters... it is by HKeller. 

2 weeks...

thats right people... in two weeks i will be 

moving to the concrete jungle 

{where i pray dreams are made of}.

i just bought my ticket for January 13th. 

And let me tell you, that little ticket induced

many nerves and a few thoughts of "am i crazy?"

i guess we will just see what happens...

graduation!

after looking at my graduation pics...

i have decided that we need photography 

lessons at the my household.

{every single pic is looking directly into the sun}

every. single. one. 

farewell texas a&m.

take care of that one of my left :)

*plus i am loving my new car decal & 
being a former student. whoop.

why hello there christmas break...

i took my last final this afternoon... its a strange feeling. i am still scared that something crazy is going to happen but- at least i am done for now. katie and i started packing today, its a bizarre and frightening feeling to know that life is pretty much about to change and i mean REALLY change. as i was packing tonight, i got really sad... i miss old college life. i miss my friends. i miss the 'carefree days."  i miss ayrshire and our giant christmas tree... i miss knowing that i was leaving for christmas and coming back for spring in college station. i miss you guys. {and now i am crying...}

i think all of these feelings are also stemming from the new york move. its here. its happening. and i am already cold just thinking about it. once christmas is celebrated and new years (by the way, i have big dreams this year for nye) i will finalize my departure date but i am thinking january 12-15. one month from tomorrow- scary? yes and fun.  "the big girl days" are here.  i am now officially on the job hunt 24 hours a day. 7 days a week.  lets do this...

::empire state::

hey there pretty city that i love, adore & miss-

the one week countdown begins. see you next week new york.

via thesartorialist. 
* 9th avenue new york

just because:

No matter how crazy things are...

REMAIN LIKE A DUCK.

Calm on the outside.

Paddling like hell underneath. 

*just because its been that kind of week. 

and on another note:

I GOT AN INTERVIEW WITH 

NYLON MAGAZINE!

college reunion!

a quick little reunion in college station.

first of all, i love these girls.

i cannot imagine life without them.

if only, we had more time...

secondly, everyone has become such a grown up.

its kind of weird and very cool all at the same time.

xoxoxo.

ayrshire minus a few...

party animals.

HBO premiere event in Austin.

I cannot tell you how good it was to see this girl...

and I get to see her again this weekend.

headed back to ATX tomorrow for a full

weekend of bachelorette festivities.

{i can only imagine what the weekend has in store?}

twenty three.

I am officially old. I have no idea why 23 seems so much older than 22... but it does. For real, not kidding. Its been a whirlwind year that began with Hurricane Ike and is ending with a four day rainstorm. {seems fitting, right?} Looking back on the year, I think it was a good one. Nothing beats senior year of college. nothing.

So in the spirit of bringing in a new year.

Here are my resolutions.

23 things that I hope to accomplish

in my 23rd year. cheers!

1. Move to NYC

2. Survive the New York Winter {i am scared}

3. Acquire a better camera & take more pictures.

4. Learn Adobe Photoshop

5. Become a top-notch emailer.

6. Perfect the homeade, from scratch oatmeal chocolate chip cookie

7. Embrace my naturally curly hair

8. Plan my brother's 21st "family" birthday in Vegas!

9. Finish reading Gone with the Wind

10. Continue my blog {its my daily dose of creativity}

11. Become a member of a church

12. Give up my coke addiction/ lessen my coke addiction

13. GET A JOB.

14. Become independent of my parents.

15. Travel to Chicago. {I've never been}

16. Call my grandparents once a week

17. Be a bridesmaid :) {yep, i said it}

18. Watch my friends as they live life & succeed & fall in love.

19. Finally get that a&m diploma.

20. Surprise my parents, an over-the-top surprise.

21. Learn to jog/run/workout ??

22. Attend a Bon Iver concert. {& inevitably cry my eyes out}

23. And to never give up on myself.

FOUR day weekend.

Its a four day weekend. Thank goodness.

It has been a whirlwind of a week & for some strange reason

I cannot seem to get organized. School has started, work 

is continuing... and its busy.

It's truly a strange time to be in college station.

I don't one hundred percent feel like I belong...

but I also don't feel like I am supposed to be anywhere 

else right now. Its just a little weird & un-normal?

{i think i just made up that word...}

So... with all of these kind of uncomfortable 

feelings, I am off to the lake for FOUR days.

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

so long summer.

It has arrived... my last day of summer {insert sad music}. Although my roomie started student teaching on Monday, I start school this next week. I shouldn't really complain, I only have 6 hours left until I have a degree!... but the thought of summer ENDING is pretty depressing. It hasn't been the summer I was expecting and looking back on it, it does seem like it lasted for a pretty good bit.  I feel like I can confidently say that I have grown up. In the past two months, I have...

-acquired a job {that will continue on through December}

-Stopped eating out all the time...

-Decided that I AM MOVING TO NYC in January!

- And got into a workout routine {well, I did that in June}

...Bring it Fall Semester

back to school

my roommate finishes her first week of student teaching today!!!!

congratulations, miss crawford. 

week one. check!

in this photo: Doris Day {miss crawford reminds me of her... so classy & timeless}

cooking made {real simple}

thanks to this wonderful find of a cookbook, 

i will learn to cook this year.

i will LOVE to cook this year.

and in return, my roommate will love me. 

"I was 32 when I started cooking; up until then, I just ate."

-Julia Child.

new york... here i come!

Leaving for NYC tomorrow morning... my flight is ridiculously early. Early enough that I will be in the big apple by ten am texas time. ugh...

be back on monday!